A Prayer I Wrote Ages Ago

For many of us, God is a big God. A God so vast that He has no end and no beginning. A God mighty in battle, exalted high above everything. Undefeated. Grand. This helps keep our faith up on many cold nights when we petition Him for help against resistance or attack. But what if that's part of our faith problem?

There are many dimensions of God, and one of them is God's goodness. The other is God's keen eye for detail. God knows every detail of our lives and hears every thought. He even knows the number of hairs on our heads! God is just as concerned with the things that seem small just as much as He is concerned about the "bigger" things we tackle daily. I fear that sometimes we focus so much on the grand things God does that we forget that the very essence of who He is is goodness. And that with His goodness comes a great level of detail and care to the smallest of things that happen in our lives. We remember that God is great, but forget that He is also a caring Dad.

I was cleaning out my drawers on one random afternoon when I came across one of my old journals. For some reason, I stopped being in a rush, and I sat down with it, for old times' sake.

I saw a prayer I had made to God in 2023. I petitioned God to help me gain clarity on an important career decision I needed to make. I needed clarity on which master's programme to choose (I had 2 equally important options, each leading a different direction). At the time, this decision seemed like a mountain that could not be moved. I kept circling between faith and fear. On top of that, I needed financial breakthrough because I had made a terrible financial decision and had been stuck for a few weeks. I felt the unevenness of the paper. I must have cried on the page while journaling. To everyone, these were non-issues. They thought I would easily get over them, but I felt like a reed in a raging river. I needed my Dad.

Flash forward to now, and I am on the other side, thankful for God's goodness. God made a way for me, and I chose a master's programme that I completely loved and that opened amazing doors to me that I would have never imagined! God also made a way for me financially! His way of provision was nothing I would have manufactured by my own wits, and I still wonder how things turned out the way they did. 😫

What seemed like impossibilities have now become testimonies and pieces of evidence that God is a Father who cares about what His daughter cares about. I am so glad that I documented that moment and allowed God to be my Dad in that season. It was as if He wanted me to see these answered prayers because I was walking into a new season where I needed to trust Him heavily again for the next steps. I think of these things often. About how particular God is with our faith journey, that He desires us to remember the moments we receive breakthroughs (if possible, to the very hour), so that we can hold on to Him tightly in the next seasons, knowing that He is a good God who does not change.

This is me telling you to continue making petitions to our Lord. He is faithful. He is kind and HE IS GOOD. He answers prayer, and He does not see any of our requests as too small for His attention. Tell Him about your desire for a new pair of shoes. That longing for a vacation. Talk to Him about the heartbreaking conversation at work with your boss. Present to Him that temptation.

So yes, God is vast. He is all-powerful and He is grand. But He is also detailed, loving and my, is He a good, good Father.

Luke 12:27-32 NKJV: "Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. If then God so clothes the grass, which today is in the field and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will He clothe you, O you of little faith? “And do not seek what you should eat or what you should drink, nor have an anxious mind. For all these things the nations of the world seek after, and your Father knows that you need these things. But seek the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added to you."

With love,

J. 🌹